Grr. It screwed up my entire sleep cycle! Here's how:

I take lithium and depakote for bipolar disorder. _Usually_ when I reboot my sleep cycle like I so eloquently described in my previous entry, I've taken the lithium muuuuuuch earlier than I did this time. I took it at about 6 in the morning this time, and usually I take it at 6:30 to 8 the NIGHT BEFORE.

Now, why'd it screw me over so? Wellll, see, lithium makes me tired. I have to take it at about 6:30 to 8 in order for the tiredness effect of the lithium to hit me at about 3 in the morning or so. That way, during one of these reboot phase thingys (which yes, I actually do consciously choose to do about once a month), I can barrel through the hardest part of staying awake with all the energy I've still got for the early night.

(And no, I actually didn't know that our energy comes from the night before, but that's rather fitting isn't it?)

So...taking it at 6 in the morning made me really tired at about 10:30. I just lay down and fell asleep. LoL Problem is, now I woke up at 5, which is the time I usually wake up _before_ a reboot phase.

Oh well. Ya live and learn. AND THEN GET LUVS! =o)

Thought of my day: "Why are diapers always named with some affectionate adjective?" (Lubs, Huggies...I'm sure there are others!)
[go to reflections on this entry]

I've always found the computer to be a great way to communicate with others. It makes things so much simpler. There's no fear involved. I can say what I want, however I feel like it at the time. People are more likely to listen to what you have to say, because when they're reading my instant message, or my diary, they can't talk to me. No, they'll need to put the effort to write an email or type me a message in response. Most people don't care about what I say, but as opposed to "the real world" where people like this simply wait for their turn to talk (or sometimes interupt me to do it) over the computer I know that anyone who stays in contact with me does so because they like who I am.

Be that as it may, there is a disadvantage to the computer. There's a loss of references when one speaks to another through any nonverbal means. Communication becomes more difficult, necessitating a more direct approach. There is no way to infer intonations in the pitch of my voice when you read what I say as opposed to hear it. Because of this, I find that smileys, specific attention to punctuation and precision of word selection to be extremely valuable in conveying both mood and meaning.

When I read this entry I can tell how I was feeling when I wrote it by the manner in which it was written. The smiley and its question-and-answer style show me that I was feeling upbeat. Had I truly been frustrated with what happened, I wouldn't have been making jokes.

Two years ago, clearly, I was still controlled by my moods. I've learned so much since then, and come to realize that my moods merely guide my actions. They don't (have to) control them. :) Smile.